I had sex with a crocodileman today. We made love on the mossy rocks, with my ankles submerged in murky water and lily pads tickling my feet. He had to be careful not to bite me; he did not want to do so, but it is hard for crocodilemen to fight their instincts, apparently. Luckily he had control over them or else I would be a skeleton at the bottom of a swamp right now. I feel flattered that he controlled himself for me, though I suppose all sentient beings must suppress their instincts to some degree.
The sex itself did not feel weird or strange, but his body was like nothing I've experienced before. His scales were rough and slimy. He seemed nearly invincible because of them. It felt like I could never do anything to hurt him. Yet I exposed my bare flesh to him, my skin that he could so easily break and devour at any moment. But he let me live, for his own ecstasy if nothing else.
It was a one-sided sense of trust, but I have no problem with it. We do not even know each other. Maybe it is selfish, but I put more emotion into the memory than I do in the crocodileman himself. So perhaps it is only fitting I should be the one to bolster the trust.
I do not think we will meet again.
✷/12
I met a man named Leviathan. He offered me some of his moonshine. Against my better judgment I tried it. Fog poured out of my tongue after I drank it, but it did not sting. In fact it was the sweetest liquor I have ever tasted. It tasted like if morning dew contained saccharine.
I know that makes no sense to you, unless you've had some of Leviathan's moonshine too, and I doubt you have. He calls it nitrogen and says its a secret family recipe. I packed some for the road.
✷/14
I'm beginning to suspect that either the nitrogen burned my taste buds off, or that it has simply ruined the taste of anything else for me. I didn't have a hangover yesterday, though, so perhaps it is worth it. The last time I had a hangover I was almost trapped in an oak tree and lost my finger. Well, 'lost' isn't the right word, because I know where it is. I just no longer have ownership of it.
Anyhow, I am heading into the market tommorrow. Hopefully I can find some supplies there for a reasonable price.